Going with the flow is way harder for me than I care to admit. After reading Tracey’s Blog post this morning I was thinking maybe I have control issues? Her post is exactly why clay and I are no longer going steady. Clay and I are currently legally separated. I have certain expectations, schedules and rules and unfortunately they spill into my art making. Her post also reminded me of when she wrote about a comment Chuck Close had made about inspiration. I wasn’t aware of the quote so I Googled it and found it here. I thought for sure his statement would be validating my finicky artist ways… According to Chuck I’m a real amateur! Saying "Amateurs look for inspiration; the rest of just get up and go to work. Baa humbug! I don't believe it -I WON'T! I’m aware of “most” of my issues, and as for the rest I’m sure Daddy-O could fill you in but my issue this week is coming off a break, my inspiration has momentarily left the room (or studio)… But of course my inspiration has left the room because now that I have time I have no real inspirational spark. I had plenty of inspiration last week when we had a house full and then my installation was cancelled and production plans got all goofed up. I’m not sure if it’s lack of motivation or it’s the lack of inspiration that creates the lack of motivation. Anyhoo, I’m enacting a couple of my rules, first to “do at least something productive every day” and second “contribute to my art every day.” Trying to be a responsible, motivated, effective time manager, self-employed artist who wishes to continue as such; I've knocked off
several business housekeeping to-do’s on a list by my computer, ran household errands, shopped, wrapped and boxed our out of state Christmas gifts and I just cleaned out the refrigerator. While this is abiding by my Cindy-Lou-Who rules it doesn’t make me very happy. In fact, when I’m not creating I can get pretty Grinchy –even while I have Christmas music playing!
